With the wedding a mere 2 months (less than!) away, I am finding it hard to get anything done. Between keeping up with my 1st-almost-2nd grader's energy and schedule, preparing for some changes on the work front, and the rest of life/family/friendships which roll along, my wedding task agenda has been seriously neglected. And my 'things needing done' list is long; trust me. But a 16 month engagement makes for a long haul when it comes to wedding planning. I think my bride-ological clock has run out and desperately needs to be rewound. Or something like that.
So, in my languished state of mind, I've been doing what I used to do best at work: working (ahem), facebooking, browsing music, reading my favorite blogs, and finding new ones. It's been a pinteresting month. Er--interesting month. Anyway.
I'm trying to get back into wedding mode (desperately), so I've been digging for some inspiration (not pinspiration). All I can think about, though, is getting married, not getting wedding-ed! Does that make sense? And, GEESH, am I excited to get married to Jim :-) Since I can't think of anything else; let me count the ways I'm excited to marry my fiance. Here's way number 33:
Recently, Jim and I were eating breakfast, and I said something passive about something-or-other-small-matter, and he laughed and rolled his eyes at me. Laughing back, I protested, 'what!? I'm just ASKING.' Jim smiled and gave me a knowing look, stating that he loved when I "asked" about something that I definitely already knew the answer to (like: Jim, did you make the appointment to have the oil changed yet?), as a sneaky way to remind him, even though he had assured me said task/request would be accomplished. Thus began a tongue in cheek ping pong match of, 'well you're really awesome at being a side seat driver' and 'impulsive projects are your favorite thing EVER', or 'must every last dish be done every time we leave the house?' The list playfully went on. Until; Jim turned those green eyes in my direction and said with a sparkle and a smile, 'you're really good at making me feel better when I have a total crap day at work.' Taking my cue, I smiled right back and returned, 'And you would drop everything in a heartbeat to satisfy my any whim.' 'You always itch my back when I ask you to, and don't even stop when you know you've gotten it.' 'You can remind me how full of worth I am as a Mother on days that are hard, or that Michael is gone.'
A moment of silence so filled with love and affection passed between us that I forgot for a moment the bustling diner and its patrons around us. I had a man across from me willing to list every good quality he saw in me, on the heels of those irking flaws. I had a man who purely loved impure me. Who was willing to see through my imperfections to the better side of me. A man like that?
He's worth a forever. or two.
I think I'll get back to that list :-)
xx
